I’m at Missy’s helping her paint her room! Oh brother, we’re having a BALL painting her wall as we get the paint on our arms! And then there’s Sophie falling asleep on the corner, and Melissa just….. just being Melissa! hahahah Yep! That’s today’s adventure! :D
So Today, I woke up and went to the living room to see find out that I was home alone. Hmm.. Well I looked around and just sat on my couchand watched t.v. for like 10 mins. until my mom arrived after picking my little niece and nephew. I unpacked the groceries, & made my mom breakfast. We ate, I cleaned the dishes &table afterwards, & then I cleaned my room & living room! hhahah Then I found out I was not going to be able to go to Cy’s b/c my mom couldn’t take me. So I chilled in my room & unexpectedly fell asleep. I woke up aroung 12:30ish, greeted my dad who had come home for lunch. After that, I dyed my mom’s hair & gave her a haircut,which looks surprisingly good!! I got dressed, went to practice, and had a work-out there. Even though, to be quite honest, I wasn’t really feeling it today. Idk there was jus something off. Then auditions for Version 1 were reaffirmed, & now I’m stuck here wondering what’s next. I want to be optimistic, but my heart’s not in it anymore. I LOVE DANCING, don’t give me wrong, it’s just I feel like it has died. I feel no passion illuminating the room as we dance together anymore. I don’t feel like it’s an actual TEAM that’s dancing. I feel like it’s just a choreographer, that we know, teaching and then just some people jus learning a dance routine that we’ll probably end up not using. I’m sure it’ll help me in the long run, but that’s not what I’m looking for. What I’m looking for is walking into a dance room where you feel the energy right away. The passion, that everyone is feeling in unison. How people are able to come together to share a passion, and how there is no barrier when ur dancing. Dancing is universal. No language barrie or culture barrier. It’s just dancing. I want to see people’s faces gleem w/ the emotion of excitement seeing and feeling that a dance piece is coming together and turning it into life. And to see people come together for those couple counts where every beat is hit with emotion and passion & to see one body moving atthe same beat… THAT…That right there is what I love. It’s what I look forward to seeing everytime in a studio. No bs , no drama- just dance.
I know I may not be the best out there, and I know I have a long way to go. But that’s why I want to learn so badly, I want to stop waisting time and share this passion w/ people who feel it as well. I want to share it w/ those who feel their blood rushing through their veins, their muscles giving their fullest strength into each move, to bring a dance piece to life. Because the fact that dancing is universal makes it so much better. Think about it this way… You can walk into a room filled with one person from each country. You don’t know them, their language, customs, culture, but none of that is needed to dance. You can show the movements with you’re body and soon enough you find urself so close to those people that you’d think u’d known them and danced with them ur entire life. THAT right there is a dream of mine. It’s dreaming big, but I know that if I don’t take part of this dream I kno I will at least see it one day come to life. But I know one thing that I have reached and am sure about, and it’s a passion. I can say that my one passion I wish to carry on further is…. dance…. <3